Happy New Year

Oy... I am so lazy that I have only written on holidays! HAH

Ok, not much going on.. probably going to fall asleep before the new years hits Mountain time, just too tired. It was our first day without anyone else here.. It wasn't too bad. Just sometimes wondering if she is thinking that she has the nuttiest parents in the world. She is such a good kid.

I am so lucky. Had a great year. Married to a good man (3.5 years strong), had a beautiful kid, got such loving parents that support me and my growing family, have a great little sister and her husband (who spoil us every chance they get), have the best friends a girl could ask for!

I had a wonderful year! Hope next year is just as wonderful, hope everyone has a good 2006!

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas, hope everyone is having a good one. Can't wait til D is home so we can open presents (he had to work today)!

Will post more later hopefully with pictures!

Oh yeah.. did I mention that's it about 65... almost 70 degrees in this part of CO?

crazy weather!

Three Generations

MooMoo's mom, Moo Moo, and baby Moo Moo

Miscellaneous

Awww crap, just had a good post, and it deleted.... argh... I like this site, but sometimes I get so frustrated...

Not too much, doc appt for baby tomorrow, she's also 4 mths tomorrow...
Hope she pulls through like a trooper after her round of vaccines...

Excited about my christmas present, D got me tickets to the symphony. I can't wait to see it. It's the Christmas concert. I know it will be awesome. Also have dinner, and a night at fancy hotel. So ultra-romantic! It'll be a while before we get to go out alone, so this is the last time before mom goes back...

I hope that I will get to post more now that I am done with school, and I hope my buds will check back more often.

It's been a nutty crazy semester, but it's over and I really have such a good time blogging, and it's such a great way to keep in touch and make new friends... I know that there was this Dear Abby Column that had this concerned person say that googling the name etc can bring your blog up and that it will be "negative" in the eyes of an employer, but I say, we are grownups, and grownups know what they can say and not say. So say what you have to, but know that there will be issues if it impacts your work, etc. I know that this is not the same as a locked up diary, and that this is PUBLIC... so therefore there are things I don't/won't talk about here... So maybe that makes my blog not as interesting as some others... oh well.

Ok I think that's the end of my rant for now....

DONE

Did my last 2 finals today, thanks goodness it's over!
Apply to nursing school,
if accepted start 18 months of school June 2006 , graduate Dec 2007.
If not, get to be with baby full time!
whew! It's been a long semester!
For sure... 2A's... still waiting to hear about the Biology class

November 2006

I am totally doing this next year!

Girly Girl

Here she is ticked off that we are trying to make her look girly!


The bows make her finally look like a girly girl!

Happy Turkey Day!

(Shivani and grandpa - Sept 2005)

It's that time of year again, time to eat lots of fowl, and then watch sports!
And miss family that is far away!

Anywhere y'all are, have a Happy Thanksgiving!

Sorry about that!

Sorry about the lack of updates, just bogged down with school... almost done. Only a couple more weeks...if I somehow pull off a 4.0 I will just have to have a BIG celebration! Any ideas?

Baby is doing well, just on her routine, and you veer off, off with your day! She will not be a happy camper.. I never understood why we had the need for a schedule til I met her.. lol

Ok peeps, if I don't post for a couple weeks understand it's because of school, and I will post again!

Also please send my frined E-lo, a hello and happy vibes to bring on labor :)

THANK YOU !!!

Thank you for a wonderful weekend (she is so happy)!!

Baby Fun

Babies are so much fun!
They are for the most part, but so labor-intensive (pardon the pun)

I just am amazed at the speed at which this little one has grown.

I can't believe it's been about 90 days since she arrived either.. it feels like she has been around for years! haha

Ok gotta go and finish some more homework, and then gotta play with the baby!

Happy Birthday DAD!!!

There he is in the middle, with his sons...

I can't believe he is a grandaddy now. He really is completely in LOVE with the "GK" as he calls her. GK for GranKid.

Dad, I hope you are having a wonderful birthday. Mom made some payasam today in honor of your birthday. We wish you were here to celebrate it with us.

You're a wonderful grandpa, and the best dad in the world!

We love you! Happy Birthday!!!

I hate school. no not really, just ONE class

If y'all want to see pictures of the lil one, go here. I have updated a few.

Not much going on, getting KILLED by my biology class, at this point I am just trying to get through it. All the other classes are going well, and in a few weeks I will apply to get into the Nursing program. I am excited. I hope school goes by quick. Then I can have a life with my hubby and baby... it's really hard to balance everything right now, but I imagine with a job it will be worse.....

Enjoy the pics of the lil one!

My baby Pumpkin!

My Lil Punkin!

She is doing well, learning some habits that we have no clue where she got them from. She has this habit of making herself as taut as a stick when she is super hungry, once she starts eating she turns into a little spaghetti.. very fun, let me tell you.

She has been trying to stay up past her bedtime "playing" with her cows (they were orignally mine)..

Being a parent is nothing like I thought it was when I planned it out in my head. I guess she will teach me a few lessons.

Oy...

I am going around in circles... I know I have to do what's best for my family. But having a CHOICE creates so many kinds of hell for me. Part of me wishes hubs would just tell me what to do. Having a choice makes me doubt myself and my judgment.

I envy the parents that didn't have a choice and had to do what they had to do. It takes that gulit out since one has to work/etc for the kids to eat, and that throws out the guilt. I don't necessarily have to work for the food to be on the table... but I know it would help out for us as a whole for me to work. I think it will affect me more than it does her. She will probably love it and not even miss me...

I don't know, but I know that it's a hard road, filled with hard decisions.

Little Trooper

She just got her first set of immunizations today... she did good. She was pissed when they shot her up, but then she took a tiny nap when we went to wal-mart to get the tylenol *just-in-case*

She is such a little trooper... Hubs aka DAD aka Dee came too, and didn't like to look at the needles.. so I told Shivani that he was scared of it, so she shouldn't be too scared. She smiled at me.

She doesn't seem to have any side effects so far other than being a little bit irritable... but wouldn't you be if you got stuck in the legs with vaccines :)

You won't believe this!

"Scientologists are encouraged not to comfort or nurture young children because Hubbard believed a child is simply a small adult who can look forward to look after themselves from a young age"

Read the whole article here.

I can't even fathom not being able to comfort my child because of my religion. I am sorry, I believe that everyone has the right to practice whatever they want to, but I think "what's the freaking point of HAVING the child if it's already considered an adult 'who can look forward to look after themselves from a young age' ????

I don't get it.

Ahhhhh!

Ok well I was just wondering about ppd. I don't know that I had it really.

I just felt pissed off about things. Nothing about baby, but just that my life changed and I didn't understand why. I think part of it is with the whole school (eventually work)/baby and just getting used to the idea that it's just not me and D anymore. It's a WHOLE new person, and that person needs me 24/7.

Sometimes I just sit there and wonder if I am a good mom, if I am doing everything right. I feel like I just let her down sometimes. But other times I think I am a supermom and can make her so completely happy (as she has made me)... It seems so contradictory.

I guess I really am going through normal things...I don't usually feel depressed as much as I do overwhelmed at times.

I think as time goes that I won't feel so glum.

Sweet Baby

She is 2 months old today!!!

Survey - Please inform me

Ok I need some info, so here's an informal survey :

Internet if you had a CHOICE to stay at home with your child, (or insert what you want to stay home or) would you CHOOSE to stay at home, or would you pursue work (or whatever passion you have) and to drop the child at daycare?

If you chose to pursue your work (passion, etc) please state why, did you have any regrets?

If you chose to stay at home with your children (or what else you are staying at home for), please state why and did you have any regrets?

Thank you, and if you remain anonymous, please answer the question completely as I want to know.

Thanks :)

Tagged

"And NO :( we didn't get to meet them last night"

This was referring to when we went to go and see U2 with our VIP tix...

So now I pass the tag along to you...
The rules are:
1. Go into your archive.
2. Find your 23rd post.
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.
5. Tag five other people to do the same.

Ok Cyto_steph, arnair, Catt, BUQT, lilbittyladybug YOU ARE TAGGED!!!!

PINK FLAMINGOS

This picture was taken when I went vacationing in (where the hell are flamingos from?)... and who came up with the word flamingo... it's so neat!

Pretty aren't they, much more than their plastic counterparts.

I was just thinking that I am growing up. I can't believe it.

I still don't feel grown up, is that normal? I thought with this kiddo's arrival that I would somehow get omnipotent, but that's still evading me.

I don't know how these creatures find it comfortable to stand on one leg.

(H-town friends/family, and those elsewhere in TX/LA, please please please stay safe. You are in my prayers!)

Blessed

So far I am happy about all the life changing things that have happened.
***Everyone is healthy and safe, (minus me and the hubs getting pretty sick once this month)...
***The little one sleeps through the night (thank god, really!)
***Getting school work done, and the reading isn't too out of control. Met some new friends in school this semester and had some funny stories about their kids.
***With the hubs working 12 hour shifts, I don't get to see him as often, because when he is home, he is usually sleeping, and I am off at school or studying. So that is the part that is hard... I hope he doesn't miss a lot of the baby's milestones. I think I would go crazy if I didn't see her smile everyday...

I know there are a lot of things in my world that are going on that are horrible and have been discussed at length on the internet and other blogs, what I know is that I am very blessed by all that I have. Good family, friends, and a great life.

unBEARably Cute

She is so cute, isn't she? The outfit is from my cousins down in Littleton, CO! Thanks Lakshmi and Malini!

Blech

Something is wrong with uploading pictures on here and shivani's site.

weird.

so sorry, no cute pics today.

Sick again with allergies, so trying to alleviate it with Benadryl. Lots of reading, and I did ok on my first Pathophysiology test.

Gotta get to bed, I will try to upload the totally cutest pictures again tomorrow!

Shivani's site

It's up and running. Go and check it out! It's on the right (under Blogs I read), called My Life and Times. Enjoy!

More and more pictures of her will be there, and while I will still talk about her here, I might not post as many pictures here. We'll see. You will just have to keep checking!

Who's your GrandDaddy?

Grandpa feeding the little PRINCESS.


Hubby with Shivani, saying her name 3 times in her ear. This is usually done on the 28th day to "name" the child. Hubby is wearing a mundu (not sure of the spelling), it's what men wear in Kerala on special occasions such as this and Onam.


Grandpa and grandbaby getting to know each other!

Sicker than a dog!

oh man... I haven't been this sick since 6th grade... I think it's a stomach virus... I wasn't able to even get up much except to yak... fever hasn't left... Just keep praying that Shivani doesn't get sick. Hubby, I think, had this about a week ago... so THANKS A LOT HUBS!!!

Better go back and crawl under the sheets. Feeling ice cold again.

Family bonding

All the ladies in the HOUSE!!!


Aunt RMR with her baby niece (this was taken when Shivani was 2 days old)

Pics of her Room

Finally I have some pics of her room.

My lil Maggie Simpson

Here she is laying in Grandma's arms. She is so content... so this must be after she got done eating.

Usually after she is done inhaling her bottle she does not want the pacifier, for about 20 minutes. Then she ends up sounding and looking like Maggie Simpson.

Once she is a month old (Sept 9th) I will be updating and having MANY more pictures on her own site which is at http://babeka1ser.blogspot.com/ ; if you want to go ahead and bookmark it. I will have more baby things there, and I will resume my daily bitching about life here. Haha, actually I don't have much whining lately, the baby has taken over that.

Ok well Internet, have a great upcoming Labor Day! I know it will be nice to have a day off to catch up on reading and no Anatomy Class that day, (Oh man, is it hard!)

Daddy Day Care, anyone?

So my dad will be out here in a little over a week. He is coming out the weekend after Labor Day to "avoid" the rush of the people at the airports and all that jazz. And next week lil Shivani will be 4 weeks old! A month!

I can't believe it's been a month, some days it feels longer than that, other days it feels like the month just rushed by (especially when I look at all the school work I have to do)

In Indian tradition we do a ceremony that is called the "28 day naming ceremony". What that consists of is putting gold jewelry on the child and her dad will say her name 3 times in her ear, while covering the other ear, so that she recognizes her name. At least that's the way I understood it. And then we celebrate by eating some good home-cooked Indian food. At least that's what we are going to do. I promise pictures will be up here as soon as my Dad gets here and we can do the ceremony for her.

I am so blessed to have my parents. I hope they know that.

To all our friends/family in New Orleans, please let us know if there is anything you need. I can't imagine how bad the damage is, but all that can be rebuilt one day, please stay safe!

Be Quiet!

It's nice to have a routine. Routines are what we need.

Baby sleeps well through the night, with usually one feeding, but during the day is a whole 'nother deal.

She must see what everyone else is doing, and she doesn't like it all quiet.

She likes the radio on, the street noise, the tv on, someone talking, or people talking on the phones.

No quiet time for baby. So that's a relief too. We don't have to tip toe much. We can even vaccum while she is sleeping.

I should be happy about that, right?

I wonder when she will be old enough to mow the lawn? Isn't that why people have kids? (just kidding!)

Pacifier Pandemonium

Ahh finally, here is a picture of her with her eyes open. Still can't figure out if she looks like her dad or me...But she is cute nonetheless.

That damn pacifier is the bane of my existence. We had to order a bunch. I swear the nurses got her hooked at the hospital. If you go to www.childmed.com , this has the one that SHIVANI loves. I ordered a crap load more, in a couple of cute colors just in case she decides to lose it and then we freak out cause we can't stop her conniption fits for the pacifier. There is a reason they call it a PACIFIER.

My sweet lil girl

I am at school right now and I miss her so much. I just called home, and mom (her grandma) was warming up her lunch..errr bottle... oh and I heard her squawking! She better have her meal on time OR ELSE. The wrath will be raining down on us!

It's amazing how in 2 weeks she has hubby, grandma, and me wrapped around her tiny little fingers. Grandpa (my dad) is so excited to come and visit her in 2 weeks. He is calling and asking about her every day. I can't wait til they meet.

On the school front, lots of reading. But I can actually manage it so far. She is pretty good after her feedings so I am getting time to read, and hubby and grandma are helping with watching her other times so I can get a bit more done. I know the sacrifice, that I am making right now in the time spent with her, will be worth it in the long run, but for right now I am missing looking at her cute little face and playing "where's the pacifier"...

Kisses to you sweet Shivani! (sweet?hmmm... well when sleeping)

Love, Mommy

Why Oh Why!

So the little one is keeping us busy. I found some really good pacifiers on sale today, and wanted to get her used to different ones, as she is SOOO attached to the one that she got from the hospital. Well she HATES it. So that is going to be great when she loses this one.

About feedings, well the whole natural breastfeeding thing isn't so natural for me. It's been hard and horrible. I am still pumping, but we are going to be putting her on formula. I know there are a lot of opinions out there on the breast vs. bottle feeding, but for me it finally came down to the fact that she wasn't getting much from me, and she was NEVER satisfied. I didn't want her to feel like she was starving, and on top of that she would only sleep for 45 minutes at a time, which I know was contributing to her losing weight. She is fine, and is a happy 10 day old.

Ahh she cries now... like ALL the time.. even when she is fed, diapered, and soothed... she STILL cries! What do I do? I hope it was just a today thing, and she goes back to being the sweet little munchkin she was yesterday.

I'm BACK!

Hi there,

I am finally back... haven't had much time for the computer. Little Shivani is keeping me busy.

Feeding her is definitely a hard task, and I am working on it, but it's tough. I wonder how I will be able to balance going back to school and her. I hope that I don't shortchange her.

But Granny (in the pic posted) is in LOVE with her granddaughter. She completely is gaga about Shivani. They have long talks about what a little brat she is.. lol!

Dee(hubby) and I are ok, suffering the lack of sleep, but moving along.

Thank you for all the concern and comments, when I came to check on the site I was so floored that so many people were checking in and keeping tabs and wishing us well. It's so wonderful. You all are so wonderful.

When I get a chance I will post the birthstory, but the short of it is, I went into labor at 3:30am on Tuesday August, 9th (no induction) and was admitted to the hospital at about 10am, got an epidural at about 12:00 noon, and then was pushing from about 2:30pm til 4:53pm at which time Shivani was born.

There was a scare where I was starting to hyperventilate, and they put me on oxygen as the baby went into fetal distress, and they were talking about c-sectioning me, but luckily I was able to pull it together and delivered her without the c-section.

Thanks for your concern Internet. I love y'all!

Talk about a grand entrance

Well its official, we're tired now. Yes, our kid has kept us awake and annoyed us for stupid, petty needs like food, diapers, shelter and for her entertainment.

Details: Shivani is the name
8-9-05 is the date
6-0lbs is the weight
20" is the length
Leo is the sign

More pics and gory diapering details to come, but its time to sleep now.

9 Months and Counting!

So here is a picture of me from last Thursday. My dad hasn't seen me in about 9 months (in person) and this picture is so he can (full term belly there!)... Can't wait to see you Dad, and hopefully when you visit the baby will FINALLY get here...

Squiggles

Baby Stuff Update :

Went to Doc's... they made me do another NST (non-stress test) and THIS time, the doc said that I had a contraction (some squiggle on the paper told him so) and that he thought it was time to check the cervix... (oh, joy to the world)

Well the good news is that compared to 2 weeks ago (when I was at 1cm), now I am 2 cms.... YEAH!!!!

yeah, right... He said that if I don't have the baby between now and thursday to come in and we will discuss inducing the baby. I have gotten lots of info stating that inducing is MUCH more painful and the chance of having a c-section goes up... I am a bit nervous now... but I just want the baby to be healthy... So please pray (or if you don't pray, think good thoughts) for baby K.

In other non-baby related news I am REALLY learning how to cook, so if you people come and visit me, I can make some good grub, and even better, I will have ice cream too. mmmmmmmmmmmmm

Boats

Oh wow... I thought FOR SURE the kid woulda shown itself by this weekend... and still NOTHING... that's not to say there is no movement...

Oh no.. the kid likes to kick like it's having some fit, because I didn't go and get it a chocolate milkshake or Cookies and Creme ice cream. I think I should listen to the baby and definitely put that on the menu for today.. ;)

Actually, good news, and it's NOT baby related, Dee/Hubby, got his boat to start up and BOY is it loud, there was something wrong with the starter at first and he got that taken care of, and now he told me once the kiddo was here, he wants to fire it up on the water. I can't wait.. I love being on the water... Mom on the other hand... she doesn't swim.. so she might not be as thrilled to go... and the baby? well I guess he/she will have to get used to going boating/fishing as her mom and dad love to be on the lake..

I think we could fit the bassinet on the boat. Maybe. LOL (just kidding, Internet)

It's a..... Still not here yet!

I have been such a bad girl. I am sorry Internet. I have been having a ball with my MOM in town. It's like the Indian food network here. I have learned a lot of new recipes, and now Hubby (Dee, as he likes to go by now on here) gets a packed lunch every day for work. He is so blissfully happy.

The house is clean, the clothes are washed and FOLDED (hubby still puts them up), the baby's room is ready (yes I will be taking pics tomorrow), the cats are crazy, and the dog has not yet chewed the house down.

BUT I HAVE STILL NOT HAD THIS BABY.

I am about 5 days overdue now.

Doc appt said that he WILL induce me when I hit 42 weeks, let pray that it doesn't go that far.

Tomorrow I have a non-stress test to measure the fetal heart acceleration, and to see if I am dilated past 1 cm or not. I bet NOT.

Other than that, Internet, not much else is going on. I have been getting so many phone calls, just been reassuring everyone that baby is not here still, it's just holding onto all those chocolate shakes and ice cream that I have been imbibing all this time.

Family Bonding

My mom's coming in today and staying forever (well til December)!!! I am so excited (really, she is the best mom ever, better than Donna Reed)... she is coming to lend us a hand(s) when this baby decides to arrive.

Also I will be getting cooking lessons, I am so excited, I am sure that I will have to taste test a lot to make sure that the recipe is exact... you know with these high altitude directions everything is just tweaked around a lil bit.

And then my sis and bro-in-law will be coming thru mid-aug, and then Dad should be here at Labor Day weekend! I can't wait... I wish everyone would be here at the same time... (can you say family portrait?) But I will just be happy to see everyone, but it's not like they want to see me.... it all about BABY now!

Happy Anniversary, Dear!

So the hubby and I went to the doc's this AM, and it was nice, the DOC was "measuring" and I had to have D hold me down, how embarrassing. All so the doc could tell me I was 1 cm dilated and NO NO NO effacement.

How nice. I wake up early (well earlier than I usually do this summer) and get probed by the doc, while hubby is there, on our anniversary. Nothing says I love you like getting probed while your husband watches...

I know I sound so whine-y lately here, and I apologize. If you saw me in person now you would HEAR how whine-y I am too... it's bad.

And why is it, when I tell the hubby that I don't like ham, he goes to the deli, and gets 1 lb ham? really? is that just to piss me off into labor? in that case he's doing good!

Still not here YET

Here is a good laugh.... it's of our "manx" cat (our youngest), and since he doesn't have a tail (he was born that way) he can sit up like a human. I think his spine HAS to be made out of JELLO.

The BABY is still not here yet, I hope it comes this week.. I want the baby to have a July b-day... so babydaddy and baby could have co-b-days... ;)

Hubby and I will be celebrating our 3rd wedding anniversary this week on July 27/28 (we had 2 ceremonies) probably not doing anything but PRAYING that the kid leaves the womb that day.

Then my MOM lands on the 30th. I am so excited about her coming. I can't wait. I wish my parents lived closer, plane tickets and all that jazz suck.

My sis might be moving too, and it's a long distance as well, so my whole family will be spread all over the country... It's tough, but since hubby and I have done a LOT of the travelling in the last 5 years or so to be with family at various times, we figure now, THEY OWE US... I personally don't really want to be travelling with an infant, plain and simple and neither does he. So at this time, if you want to see us, come and visit. Don't expect us to do all night drives anymore, or 16 hours at a stretch... we love our family/friends, but it's time for them to come out here :)

Babies and Weddings

So it's the 20th, 11 days til the DUE DATE, but the DUE DATE is a bunch of shit.

WHY?... cause that's when they (devilish doctors) THINK you are DUE, but really they LIE, and they LIE BAD.

I think maybe the heat is getting to me or something, maybe I am going delirious? I don't know, but I don't like being told that I will go over my DUE DATE. It's not a nice thing to tell someone who feels like her whole lower body is going to EXPLODE.

Ok, that's all, and the ice cream was soo good, I need more though, and I think after I have this kid, and my stomach goes back to regular size I am going to eat as much as I want just because I can, and worry about working out later.

Also a congrats to my friend, BREE, she called today and told me she is engaged to get married, and while I might not be able to attend the ceremony (it's out of state) I am so happy for her and wish her the best, and of course she better send me pictures, she is really bad about pictures. I will have to tell her hubby to teach her how to use a digital camera!

A Tubful of Ice Cream

I am thinking that any day now it will happen, and when I went into the doc's today, he looks and me and tells me most likely I will go over my due date. (ARGH!)

So I have secretly talked with the kiddo and told it to come now, like today would be fine. I just want to prove the doctor that I am not going to have a late baby. It will be fashionably early.

I am so sick of the 90+ degrees weather, the afternoon clouds, that just make it more humid, and almost never release rain. I am so sick of moving like a slug and having my hubby imitate that in public.

Oh please send something like a smoke signal or a prayer or something, so that this kid gets the show on the road. I am not patient. Oh no, not at all. I think I might miss the baby inside me, NOT, I think it was a neat experience being pregnant, but I am over that... way over it. I now just want to hold it and look at it, and maybe one day ask it to mow the lawn so Hubby can hang with me...

Next baby we have will be a winter or a spring baby, no more of this craptastic hot weather and pregnancy.

Anyone have ice cream? I need a tubful. Thanks!

Bloody Hell, what's next?

I pray that this insanity stops.

London, even though I have not walked your streets my heart bleeds today for your loss.

Stay strong, fight back.

Deep Thoughts?

(another one from my xanga site)

Ahhh... I am so ready for the new year. This coming fall is going to be so hard. I hate knowing that I know what's coming, but really having no idea. I have heard from many parents on how hard it's going to be, and you are never really prepared. I feel like the hubby and I are prepared somewhat. I mean we haven't had any kids before, but we have pets, and we have been around lots of family and friends that have kids. I know I know that it's NOT the same.

I just think at this point I know what I want to do, and how I want to raise my child, I just hope I can follow through and carry it out. We'll see, either that or you will see the CHILD raising me and hubby. (sometimes I hear that's the way it REALLY works)

Gosh I wonder why all these "deep thoughts" are coming out, must be the hormones.

Ch Ch Ch CHAAAAAAAAAANGES!

(This is my post from my Xanga site)

So I got to thinking, *yes I know*
and I was wondering about what makes people change, and not for the better.

I never understood it. I am not saying that I am perfect. But I know when I make a mistake or hurt someone. I might not always be perfect about the way I handle situations, but I try to make an honest effort to right things. You know the whole karma thing.

Lately I am thinking that some people aren't worth the effort that I have. I have a baby coming and a husband, and a house, and school and so many other things going on, that negative people just can't claim my attention anymore.

This is part of my reply to CYTOSTEPH's xanga entry :
"It's hard to accept that sometime friendships aren't what they used to be, or even to accept that people change. A good friend of mine has told me that you shouldn't feel bad for not keeping all the ppl you ever knew as friends as that is a lot of work, but especially the ones that don't show they are friends to you. There was someone in a church group that I thought was a good friend actually someone I tried to mentor, and I found out she was saying horrible things about me to other people. I don't need to waste time confronting her or even worrying. I have so much good and so many wonderful people in my life, that if she is talking about me I could care less. It doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt, but it's sad that this person couldn't come to me and tell me. She has this problem and has pretty much alienated herself and her husband from the whole group of friends, so I know it wasn't something I really did."

And it's not ONLY this person, there have been many people in the past and present that aren't what they appear to be, and I, as I have gotten older, have to be more careful of who I let in my life.

With this baby coming I want to be a better person, and that means surrounding myself with good friends and family. People who support me and tell me like it is TO MY FACE, not shitting on me behind my back. I have always tried to do the same thing.

OK this was kinda deep, so I will stop before I overuse the noggin!

Redeemed or NOT?

So the hubby has redeemed himself. A card and flowers seemed to do the trick this time :)

I think we are just ready for the anticipation of the arrival of the "bundle of joy" to go away, and to actually have the baby here in our arms so we can figure out waht kinds of havoc it will wreak on us! and that we also have frayed nerves. Not to mention Hubby is in the LAST semester of school to finish his masters, and is still working.

I am out to ya ya pregnant with baby, and it's hot as hell here in Colorado and the mosquitoes just piss me the hell off!

I just melted down last night.. well the middle of the night actually. But for now all is well with the world, and hopefully I can get to sleep tonite.

So the nursery is almost done, once I get my memory card for my new camera and stuff I promise to take oodles of pics for ppl who are interested to see the room. And I will take some last minute preggo pictures.

So the hubby found THIS and THIS, and now I am not so sure he should be redeemed, what do you think Internet?

MAD

Some men are jerks.
That's all I want to say right now.

I am not able to sleep anymore, and no one cares. Is this what my life is going to be like forever?

Not happy at all. And on top of it, I am fat and lazy now, or so I have been told.

I don't think I will speak to jerks anymore.

Going to go and lay in bed and fume more. Maybe that will make me feel better.

My sis and I on her graduation day from college 

Here's the man who DID this to me, and look how proud he looks! 

YEAH, HAPPY DAY!

happy birthday to me! lol,

now now, I just am excited about the camera that my hubby surprised me with, and he also decorated the cake himself, isn't that the sweetest! I am going to play around with the camera and hope to have some pics up soon :)

Can't wait to start the DAY!

Ok... I don't know what has happened, but my comments are all funky and messed up... sorry about that...hopefully it will be corrected soon... E-lo is so sweet, and if that's how you found my site. Thank you so much for coming to visit! She is AWESOME!

Don't touch the belly!

Thank goodness it's Friday. I am so ready for this weekend. We are going to a WEDDING. Summer weddings are a lot of fun. I don't think I have been to a wedding that was NOT in the summer... summer to me being from like May to Septemberish...

I have been invited to weddings at other times of the year, but because of school, or just no cheap flights (or this year can't fly cause too preggo- sorry sis (hers is in Sri Lanka) and cousin), I have had to decline. But summer weddings I think are WAY more expensive. I know ours was.

I have my outfit all ready, I can't wait to get dressed up... even if it's maternity dress up. I am must excited to get my hair all coiffed, and my nails done. Just feeling a lil glamourous is nice. This coming from the girl who pretty much schlumps around in pajamas or shorts most days, cause it's too much effort to get all gussed up to be hanging at home.

Well best get the beauty sleep going, need all the help I can get to look GOOD tomorrow.

And if anyone touches my stomach tomorrow I might haul off and hit them. I don't think I can handle random people touching the pregnancy belly.

Worried

So last night and this morning the fetus (since I don't know if it's a girl or a boy, for sure) did not move much. I was so worried, because usually it feels like a full blown soccer game or karate in there, but for the life of me I couldn't understand why I couldn't feel anything.

So panicky I called the OB/GYN and he said for me to come in, to monitor, and baby is perfectly fine.

Then he told me that women worry more about things than men. I agree.
DH did not really worry much, but did tell me to call the doc just in case, he said babies do this. HOW THE CRAP DOES HE KNOW, he's never had a BABY before, has he? I wonder how he keeps his cool, and how come I can't. He doesn't seems worried about much. I don't GET it.

So I am looking for some fish templates today to cut out and Steph gave me a good idea to velcro it on the walls, rather than to glue it. DUH... I should have thought of that.

Ok, well off to work on it, oh yeah and to go and get the suitcase packed just in case I go early.

Oh and my fortune cookie from lunch today had 2 fortunes in it :

1) You are heading for a land of sunshine and relaxation
2) From the floors of the ocean, the waves of the tide, a vacation awaits you far and wide.

Hmmmmm... vacation time, does that mean this baby is going to be a "vacation"?

Cookie Babies

So one of us in the childbirth class had her kid on Monday... now they are "childbirth class dropouts" She was 3.5 weeks early. Their advice to us was : "pack your suitcase tonite". They didn't have anything ready. Neither do I, so I better quit procrastinating. I am so envious. The baby is healthy and all. I just wish it was ME.

So I got cookies, and milk and before that ate chili for dinner. I figure the spices should help the kid decide if he/she wants to hurry it up here. And the cookies are to satisfy my own gluttony.

Ugh, now I feel sick.. maybe shouldn't have mixed all that together. So yuck.

Going to lay down.

OK kidding, really I think I will PUKE.

Zoo Donuts

Sorry it's been a few days since the last post, not that I really did THAT much, but it's been getting pretty BIZZZAAAY here.

and NO not in THAT way.

For Father's Day/my and a friend's b-day we went to the Denver Zoo. It is one of my favorite places. I also love watching Animal Planet. I think I should have been a vet, but medical school, whether it be for humans or animals I don't think I can handle it.

Anyway, the day starts out by me giving Hubby a card from the cats he is a proud papa to, and then the card from the ever-growing fetus, and me. He looks appropriately fatherly and tells me thank you, and then OFF WE GO!

Oh yeah did I mention it was like 90 something degrees yesterday, so we do manage to be smart and take a JUG of water (which we polish off in like 2 hours) and sunblock. No burns yesterday.

My favorite was the monkeys *the capuchins were so adorable* Hubby keeps telling me these are my ancestors. And then I look at his feet, which look remarkable like the gorillas we visit next, and I ask him if he really IS Tarzan.

God, the love in this family, let me tell ya.

So the only crappy part that I felt like I was going to die in (which non-pregnant I LOVE) was in the tropical aquaruim thing. It was more humid than Houston in an armpit.
I thought I was going to pass out and then one of the reticulated pythons were going to curl around and EAT ME.

So after about 8 hours of walked around, me and hubby left, got some drinks and dounts (lil chocolate ones) at the gas station and went home. All in all a good day, but tiring.

My mother tells me not to do anything like that for a long while.

I promise, until SHE gets here (aka babysitting baby), I won't go to the Zoo again.

Look at the comment : It's about my B-day. And really I am not kidding, I will be PISSED. No, I am kidding, except for you HUBBY. PRESENTS, WANT PRESENTS.

Stupidity

http://shitimadeup.com/index.php/weblog/stupid_product_of_the_yearso_far/

WOW.... go read this... I can believe that people in this country ARE this stupid to buy it.

Clean house, but for how long....

So this weekend was actually productive, the reason being was the DSL connection was down, don't know why, but that is what Hubby "told" me...

So we ended up cleaning the house TOP to bottom.. and when I say TOP to bottom I mean all 3 floors.. and all the nitty gritty.

I have never seen the house this clean, do guys get into the nesting mode? I don't know.

Anyway so right now, the house is spotless (Well one of the cats yakked in our bedroom floor) but essentially spotless. I am just amazed, but I have a feeling that it's all just set to implode and will be violently messy, like a blow-out... for those who are parents, you know what I mean.

I haven't really been able to sleep well anymore either, guess the day is coming upon us... need to do something about kid's room... just procrastinating so when I am in labor I can have something to do/bitch about.

Cars

I was talking with Hubby today, and we were talking about kids we know that are still in High School and stuff, and came across the subject of cars.

Hubby got a nice (new) Chevy truck on his 16th birthday or thereabouts.

What did I get? A WHOLE LOT OF JACK SQUAT. Actually since I was late with dad's car once after I turned 16 I never got to drive myself for like 6 months.

But lil sis got a car, (albeit dad's ole car) but that was also when she turned 16ish....

So pissed was I.... Anyway I was thinking,

The kids in high school now, What do you drive?

At some HS parking lots I have seen cars that are worth more than what Hubby makes in a year. It's scary.

And people out of high school and in the world, what did you drive in High school?

Just wondering if I was the only lame-o that rode the &*#&$*# BUS my SENIOR year?
And if I am, please lie.

But for all who want to know, I bought (well the now Hubby and I ) a 1999 Teal Green Grand AM GT... power everything. It kicked ass, and I miss it. Damn that Baylor idiot girl for slamming into me and ruining it in Thanksgiving of 2000.

I now drive a 1998 Jeep Cherokee 4x4. It's nice and sporty, but I want a Volvo Stationwagon CROSSCOUNTRY! my dream... (sigh)

To show the DH or Sig Other, when they are being bad. I don't know who/where you can get this from, this is just hilarious! 

BLAH in Blog Waters

It must be something in the blog waters... because as I am sitting here typing I just feel so blah, I have seen SJ's posts, and Indiogirl's posts... and it seems like we are just feeling blah... maybe it's the onset of the summer, I don't know.

I got up yesterday morning EARLY like 6:45ish... and then doodled around until Hubby left for work, and then got back in bed at like 10:30ish, and slept til 12:30noonish, and then doodled around town, and then came back home, called Hubby all panicky since on the news we had like killer tornado storms all around and I didn't want him on the roads any later, and told him to leave RIGHT THEN (he listened, thank God) and NO the killer storms did not kill us, duh.

Then I just laid in bed watching mindless TV... though I thought it was funny that Nicole Kidman had to borrow a co-workers bra to wear to Oprah, she barely has boobies! But Oprah was interrupted 3 times by the killer weather storms.

All in all I laid in bed, and vegged ALL FREAKING DAY. What is wrong with me?

Earlier this week I will report that I did have Braxton-Hicks contractions. Which are kinda painful, but more like a PMSy cramp, not so bad... but you definitely know they are there... and when you lay down and put your feet up and just relax they go away or dissapate... well at least for me they did...

I know I said that we were finally going to paint sometime last weekend, but we were lazy... so we are going to attempt again this weekend. Well I am going to clean out the room, and he will paint cause he is OCD about the wood trim and the fact that he thinks I suck at painting.

I will post pictures once the room looks like a baby can live in it.

Here is hubby with the hailstorm from the week before that made NATIONAL headlines.. see how BLACK the sky is behind? These were considered golf ball sized! 

God Bless Texas! (don't y'all love sunsets) 

Yuck

So Memorial Day here was a soaker. Except for Saturday, which was glorious, the rest of the weekend was a wash, literally.

It's great for the plants, but when it's like 50 degrees, rainy, and you are in your college hoodie and sweatpants... it really doesn't feel like the beginning of the summer at all.

So we got some plants this weekend to plants, we have the native COLUMBINE, in regular (bluish) and a new one in pink. I also picked out a hanging plant that is called a "tahitian bridal veil", it's so pretty when it has it's blooms, but me not being a green thumb might have a tough time with it... We will have to bring it inside when it gets cold, and we will have to mimic South American conditions here in Colorado. So keep your fingers crossed that I can do that. (ha)

Am I really this boring? I am writing about a PLANT that I am excited about? whoa, I used to be a spunky kickass punkrawk wanna-be chicka... where DID that go?

Oh sorry I have to go now my cat decided to jump right onto this desk and lick water out of my betta's bowls, this cat has got some guts.... RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME (Iget no respect) ARGH!

Comments

so I have added this HaloScan commenting thing that I saw on a bunch of other blogs, but I am still learning people.

So if some of the comments that you left are no longer here... I am so sorry... I emailed the ppl at Haloscan and am awaiting an answer.

So in other news, I will be making Jamaican Jerk Chicken and mashed potatoes for dinner...
*(gasp)* i know that several of the ppl that know me fell over in a faint. They are thinking... "Whoa that's too fancy and that idiot can't make that!"

Well it's an easy recipe.

Get some chicken breasts
jamaican jerk seasoning
5 lemons,
5 limes
a number of jalepenos (spelling is wrong on that.. oh well)
and zip lock baggies (big kind)

and throw it all together (well obviously cut up and squeeze the lemons and limes onto the chicken, and also the jerk seasoning)

put it all into the fridge for a few hours (however long it takes til hubby fires up the grill)

don't put it in the oven as I think it dries it out more.

If you try it, let me know if you like it or hate it.

And if you hate it... well you must not follow directions... haha :)

So I never found out where balloons come from, but did you know that spaghetti comes from China.

I love They Might Be Giants.

Thank you IndigoGirl for making me go and look that up!

Trip Recap

ok so I just got back from vacation today.

to recap very briefly (as I am so tired and it's already freaking midnight)

1) we almost were hit by a train in TX
2) the boat starter was rewired incorrectly so we never got to use the boat in tx
3) lovely edema in my ankles, it's fine now, but man I can't wait til the child doesn't affect my
body this way
4) friend we were going to stay with ended up getting very ill and we cancelled our 3rd leg of our
trip
5) boat trailed behind jeep and completely fully loaded was at max capacity of 9000 lbs. It was slow going and we took backroads all the way home
6) without air conditioning as we were afraid of overheating the jeep
7) while 7 months pregnant.

All in all, while it was nice to see my sis and bro-in-law graduate, and to see my mom and in-laws, etc... and frineds... I am SOOOOOOOO glad to be back at home with our little zoo of cats, and dog. I can't wait to get into my nice and comfy KING bed, not that there is anything wrong with a smaller bed, but this way hubby and I don't fight over sheets!

goodnite, will expand on trip recap tomorrow sometime, oh yeah first childbirth class is tomorrow, wish hubby and me luck, I hope we meet some cool parents-to-be!

Far Far Away

Moo Moo's Star Wars name : Shaka Naemp
Moo Moo's Star Wars Title : Rescho of Sinned

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What Kind of American English do you speak?

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20% Dixie

20% Yankee

5% Midwestern

0% Upper Midwestern

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Holy Crap? 20% yankee? what the hell?

Storms a coming! 

Babymoon

So the flood saga has ended for now, right after our brilliant neighbors turned off the water, it started to hail and rain here.. still cloudy, how is that for Murphy's Law?

Getting ready for the "babymoon", well really it's a graduation (my sis and bro-in-law's) and seeing family and friends... So not really any quality time with hubby by ourselves, but we are such family people I think we will love it anyways.

Hubby said he is feeling achy and tired all over. I told him REPEATEDLY to get a doc's appt, he I think has a secret fear of doctors, but passes it off as he is too busy to see one. I don't want him to hate our vacation just cause he is being a dum dum. But thank goodness we have friends who forked over money and got thru medical school, otherwise how would we have gotten thru the horrendous time we got food poisioning the same day we saw Passion of the Christ. That is a story for another day... oh man... I still can't eat hot dogs.

Well my blog will be intermittent for a few days, but please leave messages I will have some access!

Oh yeah and once we get back.. guess what we have to look forward to? YES YES CHILDBIRTH classes!

I am sure hubby is going to be SO thrilled.

Toodles! and I think I will have blogging withdrawl!

Floods, Part Deux

So.. I wake up this morning and hubby says that CABLE man came over (for neighbors who aren't flooding us) to hook up their cable. The cable box for the block is in our yard. Well hubby told the issue to the cable guy and they went to look at the box. Cable guy agrees with us that it is in no way runoff! The cable box and TELEPHONE box are completely full of water. These IDIOT neighbors can't or won't turn off the water. The stream of water is now in the street in the FRONT yard (cause I guess all of the backs of our yards are so flooded) and all the way down to the end of the block (about 500-600 feet). This is getting so ridiculous. Hubby is calling the city.
So we'll see what they can do, in the end I just hope they get a clue and turn off the water!

Added 12:00noon: The city came out right after the cable man did and told us that this is considered a "code violation" and they can have the police come out and fine them... we want to give them a chance to turn the water off.. so maybe tomorrow if they haven't we will talk with the police department and see what legal recourse options we have, we don't want to be jerks, but I think they are being jerks right now by not turning off the water.

Added 3:00pm: ok, so neighbor's son come to house and we see him and stop to speak with him and show him the issues. He agrees with us that this is NOT runoff... he states that it has to be something else. But the only problem is that all their sprinklers have good water pressure meaning their lines haven't been messed up.. it could be a city water line, a main... MY issue is I know it's not our issue, we turn all of our water off, and whether it's the neighbor's fault or the city's I want this insanity of water to STOP. It's ruining our yard, and eventually I am afraid it will creep into the basement. Son never said if he was going to turn the water off or not.. alluded he might.. so we know nothing.. why is it so hard to turn off the water? please someone clue me in...