Family Bonding

My mom's coming in today and staying forever (well til December)!!! I am so excited (really, she is the best mom ever, better than Donna Reed)... she is coming to lend us a hand(s) when this baby decides to arrive.

Also I will be getting cooking lessons, I am so excited, I am sure that I will have to taste test a lot to make sure that the recipe is exact... you know with these high altitude directions everything is just tweaked around a lil bit.

And then my sis and bro-in-law will be coming thru mid-aug, and then Dad should be here at Labor Day weekend! I can't wait... I wish everyone would be here at the same time... (can you say family portrait?) But I will just be happy to see everyone, but it's not like they want to see me.... it all about BABY now!

Happy Anniversary, Dear!

So the hubby and I went to the doc's this AM, and it was nice, the DOC was "measuring" and I had to have D hold me down, how embarrassing. All so the doc could tell me I was 1 cm dilated and NO NO NO effacement.

How nice. I wake up early (well earlier than I usually do this summer) and get probed by the doc, while hubby is there, on our anniversary. Nothing says I love you like getting probed while your husband watches...

I know I sound so whine-y lately here, and I apologize. If you saw me in person now you would HEAR how whine-y I am too... it's bad.

And why is it, when I tell the hubby that I don't like ham, he goes to the deli, and gets 1 lb ham? really? is that just to piss me off into labor? in that case he's doing good!

Still not here YET

Here is a good laugh.... it's of our "manx" cat (our youngest), and since he doesn't have a tail (he was born that way) he can sit up like a human. I think his spine HAS to be made out of JELLO.

The BABY is still not here yet, I hope it comes this week.. I want the baby to have a July b-day... so babydaddy and baby could have co-b-days... ;)

Hubby and I will be celebrating our 3rd wedding anniversary this week on July 27/28 (we had 2 ceremonies) probably not doing anything but PRAYING that the kid leaves the womb that day.

Then my MOM lands on the 30th. I am so excited about her coming. I can't wait. I wish my parents lived closer, plane tickets and all that jazz suck.

My sis might be moving too, and it's a long distance as well, so my whole family will be spread all over the country... It's tough, but since hubby and I have done a LOT of the travelling in the last 5 years or so to be with family at various times, we figure now, THEY OWE US... I personally don't really want to be travelling with an infant, plain and simple and neither does he. So at this time, if you want to see us, come and visit. Don't expect us to do all night drives anymore, or 16 hours at a stretch... we love our family/friends, but it's time for them to come out here :)

Babies and Weddings

So it's the 20th, 11 days til the DUE DATE, but the DUE DATE is a bunch of shit.

WHY?... cause that's when they (devilish doctors) THINK you are DUE, but really they LIE, and they LIE BAD.

I think maybe the heat is getting to me or something, maybe I am going delirious? I don't know, but I don't like being told that I will go over my DUE DATE. It's not a nice thing to tell someone who feels like her whole lower body is going to EXPLODE.

Ok, that's all, and the ice cream was soo good, I need more though, and I think after I have this kid, and my stomach goes back to regular size I am going to eat as much as I want just because I can, and worry about working out later.

Also a congrats to my friend, BREE, she called today and told me she is engaged to get married, and while I might not be able to attend the ceremony (it's out of state) I am so happy for her and wish her the best, and of course she better send me pictures, she is really bad about pictures. I will have to tell her hubby to teach her how to use a digital camera!

A Tubful of Ice Cream

I am thinking that any day now it will happen, and when I went into the doc's today, he looks and me and tells me most likely I will go over my due date. (ARGH!)

So I have secretly talked with the kiddo and told it to come now, like today would be fine. I just want to prove the doctor that I am not going to have a late baby. It will be fashionably early.

I am so sick of the 90+ degrees weather, the afternoon clouds, that just make it more humid, and almost never release rain. I am so sick of moving like a slug and having my hubby imitate that in public.

Oh please send something like a smoke signal or a prayer or something, so that this kid gets the show on the road. I am not patient. Oh no, not at all. I think I might miss the baby inside me, NOT, I think it was a neat experience being pregnant, but I am over that... way over it. I now just want to hold it and look at it, and maybe one day ask it to mow the lawn so Hubby can hang with me...

Next baby we have will be a winter or a spring baby, no more of this craptastic hot weather and pregnancy.

Anyone have ice cream? I need a tubful. Thanks!

Bloody Hell, what's next?

I pray that this insanity stops.

London, even though I have not walked your streets my heart bleeds today for your loss.

Stay strong, fight back.

Deep Thoughts?

(another one from my xanga site)

Ahhh... I am so ready for the new year. This coming fall is going to be so hard. I hate knowing that I know what's coming, but really having no idea. I have heard from many parents on how hard it's going to be, and you are never really prepared. I feel like the hubby and I are prepared somewhat. I mean we haven't had any kids before, but we have pets, and we have been around lots of family and friends that have kids. I know I know that it's NOT the same.

I just think at this point I know what I want to do, and how I want to raise my child, I just hope I can follow through and carry it out. We'll see, either that or you will see the CHILD raising me and hubby. (sometimes I hear that's the way it REALLY works)

Gosh I wonder why all these "deep thoughts" are coming out, must be the hormones.

Ch Ch Ch CHAAAAAAAAAANGES!

(This is my post from my Xanga site)

So I got to thinking, *yes I know*
and I was wondering about what makes people change, and not for the better.

I never understood it. I am not saying that I am perfect. But I know when I make a mistake or hurt someone. I might not always be perfect about the way I handle situations, but I try to make an honest effort to right things. You know the whole karma thing.

Lately I am thinking that some people aren't worth the effort that I have. I have a baby coming and a husband, and a house, and school and so many other things going on, that negative people just can't claim my attention anymore.

This is part of my reply to CYTOSTEPH's xanga entry :
"It's hard to accept that sometime friendships aren't what they used to be, or even to accept that people change. A good friend of mine has told me that you shouldn't feel bad for not keeping all the ppl you ever knew as friends as that is a lot of work, but especially the ones that don't show they are friends to you. There was someone in a church group that I thought was a good friend actually someone I tried to mentor, and I found out she was saying horrible things about me to other people. I don't need to waste time confronting her or even worrying. I have so much good and so many wonderful people in my life, that if she is talking about me I could care less. It doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt, but it's sad that this person couldn't come to me and tell me. She has this problem and has pretty much alienated herself and her husband from the whole group of friends, so I know it wasn't something I really did."

And it's not ONLY this person, there have been many people in the past and present that aren't what they appear to be, and I, as I have gotten older, have to be more careful of who I let in my life.

With this baby coming I want to be a better person, and that means surrounding myself with good friends and family. People who support me and tell me like it is TO MY FACE, not shitting on me behind my back. I have always tried to do the same thing.

OK this was kinda deep, so I will stop before I overuse the noggin!

Redeemed or NOT?

So the hubby has redeemed himself. A card and flowers seemed to do the trick this time :)

I think we are just ready for the anticipation of the arrival of the "bundle of joy" to go away, and to actually have the baby here in our arms so we can figure out waht kinds of havoc it will wreak on us! and that we also have frayed nerves. Not to mention Hubby is in the LAST semester of school to finish his masters, and is still working.

I am out to ya ya pregnant with baby, and it's hot as hell here in Colorado and the mosquitoes just piss me the hell off!

I just melted down last night.. well the middle of the night actually. But for now all is well with the world, and hopefully I can get to sleep tonite.

So the nursery is almost done, once I get my memory card for my new camera and stuff I promise to take oodles of pics for ppl who are interested to see the room. And I will take some last minute preggo pictures.

So the hubby found THIS and THIS, and now I am not so sure he should be redeemed, what do you think Internet?

MAD

Some men are jerks.
That's all I want to say right now.

I am not able to sleep anymore, and no one cares. Is this what my life is going to be like forever?

Not happy at all. And on top of it, I am fat and lazy now, or so I have been told.

I don't think I will speak to jerks anymore.

Going to go and lay in bed and fume more. Maybe that will make me feel better.

My sis and I on her graduation day from college 

Here's the man who DID this to me, and look how proud he looks! 

YEAH, HAPPY DAY!

happy birthday to me! lol,

now now, I just am excited about the camera that my hubby surprised me with, and he also decorated the cake himself, isn't that the sweetest! I am going to play around with the camera and hope to have some pics up soon :)

Can't wait to start the DAY!

Ok... I don't know what has happened, but my comments are all funky and messed up... sorry about that...hopefully it will be corrected soon... E-lo is so sweet, and if that's how you found my site. Thank you so much for coming to visit! She is AWESOME!

Don't touch the belly!

Thank goodness it's Friday. I am so ready for this weekend. We are going to a WEDDING. Summer weddings are a lot of fun. I don't think I have been to a wedding that was NOT in the summer... summer to me being from like May to Septemberish...

I have been invited to weddings at other times of the year, but because of school, or just no cheap flights (or this year can't fly cause too preggo- sorry sis (hers is in Sri Lanka) and cousin), I have had to decline. But summer weddings I think are WAY more expensive. I know ours was.

I have my outfit all ready, I can't wait to get dressed up... even if it's maternity dress up. I am must excited to get my hair all coiffed, and my nails done. Just feeling a lil glamourous is nice. This coming from the girl who pretty much schlumps around in pajamas or shorts most days, cause it's too much effort to get all gussed up to be hanging at home.

Well best get the beauty sleep going, need all the help I can get to look GOOD tomorrow.

And if anyone touches my stomach tomorrow I might haul off and hit them. I don't think I can handle random people touching the pregnancy belly.

Worried

So last night and this morning the fetus (since I don't know if it's a girl or a boy, for sure) did not move much. I was so worried, because usually it feels like a full blown soccer game or karate in there, but for the life of me I couldn't understand why I couldn't feel anything.

So panicky I called the OB/GYN and he said for me to come in, to monitor, and baby is perfectly fine.

Then he told me that women worry more about things than men. I agree.
DH did not really worry much, but did tell me to call the doc just in case, he said babies do this. HOW THE CRAP DOES HE KNOW, he's never had a BABY before, has he? I wonder how he keeps his cool, and how come I can't. He doesn't seems worried about much. I don't GET it.

So I am looking for some fish templates today to cut out and Steph gave me a good idea to velcro it on the walls, rather than to glue it. DUH... I should have thought of that.

Ok, well off to work on it, oh yeah and to go and get the suitcase packed just in case I go early.

Oh and my fortune cookie from lunch today had 2 fortunes in it :

1) You are heading for a land of sunshine and relaxation
2) From the floors of the ocean, the waves of the tide, a vacation awaits you far and wide.

Hmmmmm... vacation time, does that mean this baby is going to be a "vacation"?

Cookie Babies

So one of us in the childbirth class had her kid on Monday... now they are "childbirth class dropouts" She was 3.5 weeks early. Their advice to us was : "pack your suitcase tonite". They didn't have anything ready. Neither do I, so I better quit procrastinating. I am so envious. The baby is healthy and all. I just wish it was ME.

So I got cookies, and milk and before that ate chili for dinner. I figure the spices should help the kid decide if he/she wants to hurry it up here. And the cookies are to satisfy my own gluttony.

Ugh, now I feel sick.. maybe shouldn't have mixed all that together. So yuck.

Going to lay down.

OK kidding, really I think I will PUKE.

Zoo Donuts

Sorry it's been a few days since the last post, not that I really did THAT much, but it's been getting pretty BIZZZAAAY here.

and NO not in THAT way.

For Father's Day/my and a friend's b-day we went to the Denver Zoo. It is one of my favorite places. I also love watching Animal Planet. I think I should have been a vet, but medical school, whether it be for humans or animals I don't think I can handle it.

Anyway, the day starts out by me giving Hubby a card from the cats he is a proud papa to, and then the card from the ever-growing fetus, and me. He looks appropriately fatherly and tells me thank you, and then OFF WE GO!

Oh yeah did I mention it was like 90 something degrees yesterday, so we do manage to be smart and take a JUG of water (which we polish off in like 2 hours) and sunblock. No burns yesterday.

My favorite was the monkeys *the capuchins were so adorable* Hubby keeps telling me these are my ancestors. And then I look at his feet, which look remarkable like the gorillas we visit next, and I ask him if he really IS Tarzan.

God, the love in this family, let me tell ya.

So the only crappy part that I felt like I was going to die in (which non-pregnant I LOVE) was in the tropical aquaruim thing. It was more humid than Houston in an armpit.
I thought I was going to pass out and then one of the reticulated pythons were going to curl around and EAT ME.

So after about 8 hours of walked around, me and hubby left, got some drinks and dounts (lil chocolate ones) at the gas station and went home. All in all a good day, but tiring.

My mother tells me not to do anything like that for a long while.

I promise, until SHE gets here (aka babysitting baby), I won't go to the Zoo again.

Look at the comment : It's about my B-day. And really I am not kidding, I will be PISSED. No, I am kidding, except for you HUBBY. PRESENTS, WANT PRESENTS.

Stupidity

http://shitimadeup.com/index.php/weblog/stupid_product_of_the_yearso_far/

WOW.... go read this... I can believe that people in this country ARE this stupid to buy it.

Clean house, but for how long....

So this weekend was actually productive, the reason being was the DSL connection was down, don't know why, but that is what Hubby "told" me...

So we ended up cleaning the house TOP to bottom.. and when I say TOP to bottom I mean all 3 floors.. and all the nitty gritty.

I have never seen the house this clean, do guys get into the nesting mode? I don't know.

Anyway so right now, the house is spotless (Well one of the cats yakked in our bedroom floor) but essentially spotless. I am just amazed, but I have a feeling that it's all just set to implode and will be violently messy, like a blow-out... for those who are parents, you know what I mean.

I haven't really been able to sleep well anymore either, guess the day is coming upon us... need to do something about kid's room... just procrastinating so when I am in labor I can have something to do/bitch about.

Cars

I was talking with Hubby today, and we were talking about kids we know that are still in High School and stuff, and came across the subject of cars.

Hubby got a nice (new) Chevy truck on his 16th birthday or thereabouts.

What did I get? A WHOLE LOT OF JACK SQUAT. Actually since I was late with dad's car once after I turned 16 I never got to drive myself for like 6 months.

But lil sis got a car, (albeit dad's ole car) but that was also when she turned 16ish....

So pissed was I.... Anyway I was thinking,

The kids in high school now, What do you drive?

At some HS parking lots I have seen cars that are worth more than what Hubby makes in a year. It's scary.

And people out of high school and in the world, what did you drive in High school?

Just wondering if I was the only lame-o that rode the &*#&$*# BUS my SENIOR year?
And if I am, please lie.

But for all who want to know, I bought (well the now Hubby and I ) a 1999 Teal Green Grand AM GT... power everything. It kicked ass, and I miss it. Damn that Baylor idiot girl for slamming into me and ruining it in Thanksgiving of 2000.

I now drive a 1998 Jeep Cherokee 4x4. It's nice and sporty, but I want a Volvo Stationwagon CROSSCOUNTRY! my dream... (sigh)