If y'all want to see pictures of the lil one, go here. I have updated a few. Not much going on, getting KILLED by my biology class, at this point I am just trying to get through it. All the other classes are going well, and in a few weeks I will apply to get into the Nursing program. I am excited. I hope school goes by quick. Then I can have a life with my hubby and baby... it's really hard to balance everything right now, but I imagine with a job it will be worse..... Enjoy the pics of the lil one!
My Lil Punkin!She is doing well, learning some habits that we have no clue where she got them from. She has this habit of making herself as taut as a stick when she is super hungry, once she starts eating she turns into a little spaghetti.. very fun, let me tell you. She has been trying to stay up past her bedtime "playing" with her cows (they were orignally mine)..Being a parent is nothing like I thought it was when I planned it out in my head. I guess she will teach me a few lessons.
Oy... I am going around in circles... I know I have to do what's best for my family. But having a CHOICE creates so many kinds of hell for me. Part of me wishes hubs would just tell me what to do. Having a choice makes me doubt myself and my judgment. I envy the parents that didn't have a choice and had to do what they had to do. It takes that gulit out since one has to work/etc for the kids to eat, and that throws out the guilt. I don't necessarily have to work for the food to be on the table... but I know it would help out for us as a whole for me to work. I think it will affect me more than it does her. She will probably love it and not even miss me... I don't know, but I know that it's a hard road, filled with hard decisions.
She just got her first set of immunizations today... she did good. She was pissed when they shot her up, but then she took a tiny nap when we went to wal-mart to get the tylenol *just-in-case*She is such a little trooper... Hubs aka DAD aka Dee came too, and didn't like to look at the needles.. so I told Shivani that he was scared of it, so she shouldn't be too scared. She smiled at me. She doesn't seem to have any side effects so far other than being a little bit irritable... but wouldn't you be if you got stuck in the legs with vaccines :)
"Scientologists are encouraged not to comfort or nurture young children because Hubbard believed a child is simply a small adult who can look forward to look after themselves from a young age"
Read the whole article here.
I can't even fathom not being able to comfort my child because of my religion. I am sorry, I believe that everyone has the right to practice whatever they want to, but I think "what's the freaking point of HAVING the child if it's already considered an adult 'who can look forward to look after themselves from a young age' ????
I don't get it.
Ok well I was just wondering about ppd. I don't know that I had it really.
I just felt pissed off about things. Nothing about baby, but just that my life changed and I didn't understand why. I think part of it is with the whole school (eventually work)/baby and just getting used to the idea that it's just not me and D anymore. It's a WHOLE new person, and that person needs me 24/7.
Sometimes I just sit there and wonder if I am a good mom, if I am doing everything right. I feel like I just let her down sometimes. But other times I think I am a supermom and can make her so completely happy (as she has made me)... It seems so contradictory.
I guess I really am going through normal things...I don't usually feel depressed as much as I do overwhelmed at times.
I think as time goes that I won't feel so glum.
She is 2 months old today!!!
Ok I need some info, so here's an informal survey :
Internet if you had a CHOICE to stay at home with your child, (or insert what you want to stay home or) would you CHOOSE to stay at home, or would you pursue work (or whatever passion you have) and to drop the child at daycare?
If you chose to pursue your work (passion, etc) please state why, did you have any regrets?
If you chose to stay at home with your children (or what else you are staying at home for), please state why and did you have any regrets?
Thank you, and if you remain anonymous, please answer the question completely as I want to know.
Thanks :)
"And NO :( we didn't get to meet them last night"
This was referring to when we went to go and see U2 with our VIP tix...
So now I pass the tag along to you...
The rules are:
1. Go into your archive.
2. Find your 23rd post.
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.
5. Tag five other people to do the same.
Ok Cyto_steph, arnair, Catt, BUQT, lilbittyladybug YOU ARE TAGGED!!!!
This picture was taken when I went vacationing in (where the hell are flamingos from?)... and who came up with the word flamingo... it's so neat!Pretty aren't they, much more than their plastic counterparts. I was just thinking that I am growing up. I can't believe it.
I still don't feel grown up, is that normal? I thought with this kiddo's arrival that I would somehow get omnipotent, but that's still evading me. I don't know how these creatures find it comfortable to stand on one leg. (H-town friends/family, and those elsewhere in TX/LA, please please please stay safe. You are in my prayers!)
So far I am happy about all the life changing things that have happened. ***Everyone is healthy and safe, (minus me and the hubs getting pretty sick once this month)... ***The little one sleeps through the night (thank god, really!)***Getting school work done, and the reading isn't too out of control. Met some new friends in school this semester and had some funny stories about their kids. ***With the hubs working 12 hour shifts, I don't get to see him as often, because when he is home, he is usually sleeping, and I am off at school or studying. So that is the part that is hard... I hope he doesn't miss a lot of the baby's milestones. I think I would go crazy if I didn't see her smile everyday...I know there are a lot of things in my world that are going on that are horrible and have been discussed at length on the internet and other blogs, what I know is that I am very blessed by all that I have. Good family, friends, and a great life.
She is so cute, isn't she? The outfit is from my cousins down in Littleton, CO! Thanks Lakshmi and Malini!
Something is wrong with uploading pictures on here and shivani's site. weird. so sorry, no cute pics today. Sick again with allergies, so trying to alleviate it with Benadryl. Lots of reading, and I did ok on my first Pathophysiology test. Gotta get to bed, I will try to upload the totally cutest pictures again tomorrow!
It's up and running. Go and check it out! It's on the right (under Blogs I read), called My Life and Times. Enjoy!More and more pictures of her will be there, and while I will still talk about her here, I might not post as many pictures here. We'll see. You will just have to keep checking!
oh man... I haven't been this sick since 6th grade... I think it's a stomach virus... I wasn't able to even get up much except to yak... fever hasn't left... Just keep praying that Shivani doesn't get sick. Hubby, I think, had this about a week ago... so THANKS A LOT HUBS!!!Better go back and crawl under the sheets. Feeling ice cold again.
All the ladies in the HOUSE!!!
Aunt RMR with her baby niece (this was taken when Shivani was 2 days old)
Here she is laying in Grandma's arms. She is so content... so this must be after she got done eating.
Usually after she is done inhaling her bottle she does not want the pacifier, for about 20 minutes. Then she ends up sounding and looking like Maggie Simpson.Once she is a month old (Sept 9th) I will be updating and having MANY more pictures on her own site which is at http://babeka1ser.blogspot.com/ ; if you want to go ahead and bookmark it. I will have more baby things there, and I will resume my daily bitching about life here. Haha, actually I don't have much whining lately, the baby has taken over that. Ok well Internet, have a great upcoming Labor Day! I know it will be nice to have a day off to catch up on reading and no Anatomy Class that day, (Oh man, is it hard!)
So my dad will be out here in a little over a week. He is coming out the weekend after Labor Day to "avoid" the rush of the people at the airports and all that jazz. And next week lil Shivani will be 4 weeks old! A month! I can't believe it's been a month, some days it feels longer than that, other days it feels like the month just rushed by (especially when I look at all the school work I have to do)In Indian tradition we do a ceremony that is called the "28 day naming ceremony". What that consists of is putting gold jewelry on the child and her dad will say her name 3 times in her ear, while covering the other ear, so that she recognizes her name. At least that's the way I understood it. And then we celebrate by eating some good home-cooked Indian food. At least that's what we are going to do. I promise pictures will be up here as soon as my Dad gets here and we can do the ceremony for her. I am so blessed to have my parents. I hope they know that. To all our friends/family in New Orleans, please let us know if there is anything you need. I can't imagine how bad the damage is, but all that can be rebuilt one day, please stay safe!
